What are our deepest, darkest emotions? How did we get them? How do we get rid of them? These emotions that hold us back in life, preventing us from achieving our personal happiness, hopes, and dreams. The uncontrollable urges and negative feelings of anger, rage, anxiety, fear, paranoia, frustration, dissociation, and chaos ruling our daily lives bringing to us and drawing into our world, more of the same. How did we get to this point? How do we get out?
This is the author's personal story of emotional childhood neglect responsible for both her near death at age five and ultimately the terrible, tragic death of its littlest family member. It describes a chaotic household combining a psychopathic mother, a domineered father, parties, alcohol, and prescription drugs. It tells of the journey to heal from such a past and how this traumatic history negatively impacted her life and decisions resulting in stumbles, poor decisions, broken relationships, and the terrifying experience of being married, for the first time, to another psychopath.