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Yet he knew only too well what the reasons were for this unexpected temptation. It was the urge to escape—he admitted to himself—this yearning for the new and the remote, this appetite for freedom, for unburdening, for forgetfulness; it was a pressure away from his work, from the steady drudgery of a coldly passionate service.
Even as a young man this insatiability had meant to him the very nature, the fullest essence, of talent; and for that reason he had restrained and chilled his emotions, since he was aware that they incline to content themselves with a happy approximation, a state of semi-completion. Were these enslaved emotions now taking their vengeance on him, by leaving him in the lurch, by refusing to forward and lubricate his art; and were they bearing off with them every enjoyment, every live interest in form and expression?
Even as it applies to the individual, art is a heightened mode of existence. It gives deeper pleasures, it consumes more quickly. It carves into its servants' faces the marks of imaginary and spiritual adventures, and though their external activities may be as quiet as a cloister, it produces a lasting voluptuousness, over-refinement, fatigue, and curiosity of the nerves such as can barely result from a life filled with illicit passions and enjoyments
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Рассказ (рассказ!) ввел меня в кризис — вот это сила.
«– Видите ли, Ашенбах всегда жил только вот этак, – тут он стиснул левую руку в кулак, – и никогда вот так, – и он разжал пальцы, расслабленно уронив руку на подлокотник кресла.» — ну это же я ровно.
В общем, быть можно либо стоиком, либо поэтом. По Манну — нельзя быть in the middle. По современной психологии — конечно можно. Захотелось резко добавить себе «бездну» в жизни.
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