Hear Me Raw

and fearful that the feeling of scare and fear is going to make me sick. Lost. Overwhelmed. Out of control. And wellness just blocks all of that. Henrietta?

And this feeling of scared and fear, makes me even more scared

were promised to me? Or I’m scared that maybe I won’t die of cancer and I’ll live like Great Grandma Nancy to 104 years old and it will all be for what? I’ll have no-one there, the memories saved will be over-exposed and airbrushed, they’ll mean nothing. And I’ll still have not worked it out. And I’ll still be full of worry and I’ll feel utterly alone.
Sorry but I’ve got more. I’m scared I’ll never get married, like Jodi. I’m scared that I might not want to. Or buy a house. Or do anything that everyone expects me to do